Emma Howell

Grown From A Seed


An original painting from the four year wild fire collection.

Acrylic and pencil on paper, 22″ x 30″, 2020.


The first time I ate a vegetable I had grown from seed and accomplished such an amazing thing. Pride and joy!”

“A decision was made last year and it’s always on my mind. Was it the right one? I’ll never know because it impacts the future. I have never liked not knowing what is going to happen or if something is possible. I get frustrated and angry so the decision is always a step away in my mind.

My other half is proud of me and wants me to go to college. He’s very positive thinking and I’m the negative thinker. I end up reading too much into the numbers and percentages about conception and age and I scare myself. The what ifs terrify me. What terrifies me most is; what if I made the wrong decision and, by the time college is ended, what if it doesn’t happen for us?

He was always a sentimental guy. He sobbed anytime I left. It’s a funny thing to me that he liked jazz. He also liked nice cars and taking out loans that he could never pay for. Because of this, I’m torn about how to be sad while I watch my mom deal with the financials now. I find myself being angry more often and then just breaking down with sadness because it is to hard to be mad at this time.”

Swaddled in my favorite sunny yellow sweatshirt,  and bare feet, cold now, resting on the porch banister. The laminated cover of the library book crinkles as I turn another page, the sounds of water swishing and lapping gently against the shoreline washing over my ears.”


Unframed – Due to the size of this artwork, shipping costs are high and logistics are more complex if it were to be framed. Therefore, I’m hesitant to offer bespoke framing. If you’re UK-based or exceptionally keen for a frame, please enquire to discuss your options.


SKU: EH2020-119 Category: